What do you paint when you believe so much in painting, but have no faith whatsoever in that belief? What do you paint when all you can see is yourself, and you know you’re a liar? What do you paint when no one cares about painting, then when everyone cares about painting, then when no one cares again? What do you paint when no one is looking? John McLaughlin once said that the most difficult part of making music was getting out of the way, that you have to forget, forget everything. All I’m trying to do is get out of the way.